Here I am…

Again... with these patterns and masks clinging tightly to my skin.

I can barely breathe. If I am not constantly doing, thinking, feeling… I will lose control.

I am afraid to let go, to be, to allow the mask to drop away. What if I am not accepted, not loved, unseen, isolated, disconnected… How did I end up here again?
 
At times, life can feel meaningless, confusing, and overwhelming. You feel stuck, anxious, or depressed. You may start to wonder who you are and why you keep falling into these patterns over and over.
 
FOLLOW THE ROOTS INTO YOURSELF

I need a map pointing to the center of myself, where I can go back to who I was when I started. See with new eyes, new awareness, new experience. Tabula rasa- the blank slate.

 

I need a lantern, a compass, a way to untangle the webs of unhealthy thinking and doing I have created. As children, we are whole - our psyches have not been split into all the pieces that become ego, personality, habit. Life experiences move in quickly and we believe that the only way to be loved or to feel worthy and safe is to put on a mask.

 

As we grow into adults, the mask hardens and seals and we forget it is a mask at all.

This is me- this is my personality.
 
THE ENNEAGRAM: (ANY-a-gram)

 

The Enneagram is a powerful instrument for personal transformation, a map showing how to start this journey into the self. It stems from the Greek words Ennea (the number nine) and grammos (symbol). The nine-pointed Enneagram symbol represents nine distinct strategies for relating to the self, others, and the world.

 

It is a tool to begin to understand why we act, think, feel, and behave the way we do, a mirror for consciousness, revealing how we have become falsely identified with particular forms. It's a compass, a way to illumine the personality and the constructs of the ego.
 
The Enneagram teaches that early in life we learned to feel safe and to cope with our family situations and personal circumstances, by developing a strategy based on our natural talents and abilities. Each Enneagram type has a different pattern of thinking, feeling, and acting that arises from a deeper inner motivation or worldview.

 

We all share common experiences, while also being unique individuals. This tool is not used to put us in a box, but instead gives us an awareness of the box we see the world through.

 

Personality is the way we express ourselves as individuals, but at times, we can get stuck in automatic thoughts and beliefs. Challenges arise when your point of view becomes rigid and you get stuck in mindless habits. By working with the Enneagram, you develop a deeper understanding of others and learn alternatives to your own patterns of behavior.

 

You can break free from outdated coping strategies and begin to see life from a broader point of view. By discovering these unconscious patterns, you can lead a more fulfilling life, enjoy healthier relationships, and connect with your true authentic Self.
 
LIGHT THE PATH AND EMPOWER CHOICE

The Enneagram shines light on your gifts and your shadows. Instead of allowing the ego to work in the shadow of the unconscious, where it tends to create drama, the Enneagram shows you what's working underneath, allowing you to observe motivations and manipulations within yourself that keep you from what you truly desire.

 

When you uncover the shadow self and shine a light into the dark corners of your personality, you give yourself a powerful gift- the ability to choose. You get to decide, consciously, if and when you want to put on the mask.

 

Instead of the personality controlling your spirit, you take back the compass and allow your soul to return to its rightful place as your wise inner guide.

 

 

This is where I can help! I provide a space for you to understand and claim your gifts while gaining a better understanding of where you are stuck. I have a rich appreciation of how the Enneagram can be used as a tool in life. We can explore all of the places where you are losing your energy and zest for life. Challenges arise when our point of view becomes rigid and we get stuck in automatic habits. By discovering these unconscious patterns, you can lead a more fulfilling life, enjoy healthier relationships, and connect with your true self.